I have always been the sweet, inoccent, shy, respectful, giggly, sensitive, and caring girl. I always and sadly still, believe in fairy tales and happy endings. When I was in grade school, like all kids that age, I always had a boyfriend. The thing is, i always believe that one day I would marry that boy, have three kids, and be a teacher. Wow, that just sounds like every girls dream. But still, to this day I believe it..But don't most people?   __I finaley went to big high school in the eigth grade. I was smart, pretty, single, band geek, with many friends and still the same girl I always was. I never looked at anyone as a bad person until they have done me wrong

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There was a girl named Victoria and a boy named Andrew. Every day she would look at him at lunch and day dream until lunch was over. Every day she would hope that he liked her and Victoria was very brave.

So one day she walked up to him and said "do you like me" he said not even close. She said "do you think I'm pretty" he said not in a million years. Victoria was sooo upset she ran away but Andrew was too quick. He grabbed her arm and said you are so pretty you can never get prettier but I think you can find a way and I love you so much that I would do anything for you.

 

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There was a blind girl who was filled with animosity and despised the world. She didn't have many friends, just a boyfriend who loved her deeply, like no one else. She always used to say that she'd marry him if she could see him. Suddenly, one day someone donated her a pair of eyes.

And that's when she finally saw her boyfriend. She was astonished to see that her boyfriend was blind. He told her, "You can see me now, can we get married?" She replied, "And do what? We'd never be happy. I have my eye sight now, but you're still blind. It won't work out, I'm sorry."

With a tear in his eye and a smile on his face, he meekly said, "I understand. I just want you to always be happy. Take care of yourself, and my eyes

 

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It was my last year in college when I came in contact to Facebook .I was a very lazy student and a little rude and careless kind of boy. When I first joined Facebook I thought it was not useful for a person like me but slowly I also find it interesting like others I found many friends of mine whom I almost forgotten, some of them are in foreign.

Facebook helps me to re-connected myself with my friends and my relatives whom I am not able to be in connect because of my studies and busy life. But as I said I was a careless kind of guy so I hardly used Facebook. I only used it when I want to share something interesting or send any message to my friend. There were so many people in my friend list some are nice some are wired but a person is unique among all.

She was a girl maybe around my age as I have never seen her so I can’t tell you how she look and how much old she was. But I liked her, she was very good from heart she talk very nicely and in such a way that it gave me a feeling that make anyone feel special about themselves.

We start chatting formally but with time I was very much open to her. I usually share everything I can whenever I chat with her a feeling of happiness and encouragement runs in my veins. Actually I start liking her so much that I can’t able to express it in words.

One day I said all this to one of my good friend

He first laughed a lot and said ‘Are you mad? You start liking a girl who you never meet, forget about meeting you not even see her. My friend wake up, this Facebook world is a fake, people come here just for time pass’. “If you can’t make it then fake it” is the philosophy of Facebook. So if you take my advice then stop chatting with her and forget about her, concentrate on your Career and on those girls whom you can actually see and meet”.

I felt little bad after hearing him but then I feel maybe he is right. So I stop chatting with her. She also not bother me. I try to forget her but in reality I can’t able to do so I miss her so much. After ten days I got one message from her.

She wrote……………..

“Hi frd how are you?I hope ur f9 Tc bye”

I don’t want to message her but still I sent a message in anger I didn’t know was I angry at her as she message me after ten days? Or was I angry on myself why I stop chatting with her?

I wrote………………..

” Y r u worrying abt me.
It doesn’t matter 4 u whether I am f9 or not.
My life is full of problems & I don’t want any more problems
thanks & bye

I got her reply after one day she wrote………………

“Hey what happens 2 u
R u ok ???
Why I don’t worry 4 U
you are my dearest friend I was out of town that’s why send u mgs after 10 days
what’s your problem????
May I know May be I can help you tc frd god bless U ”

When I got her reply I felt so happy to know that she is still so concerned about me, I send her a new message……….

“Hi sorry 4 that mgs I was 2 upset
I was sick , rejected from campus interview & my dad is facing some financial problems.
Sorry Tc bye meets U in the chat room”

I forget about my friend’s advice and start chatting with her. She was playing a support system for me. I take seriously everything she said to me.

She said,’first you take care of your health, then try to find out why you got rejected and work hard on your weak point and as far as the financial problem of your dad is concern you can do some kind of part time job to help him’

She is an angel for me just like her name sorry I forget to tell you, her name was angel. Her advice does magic I was becoming healthier, I got selected in one of the best company and now I also able to help dad.

Now I want to tell her she is more than a Facebook friend to me. I am loving her more than anything. She was my first love. But God had some other plans for me before I able to tell her anything she stop using Facebook.

After one week I got one message from her.
“Hi dear
how r u?
I am sending this message to Inf U that I am not able 2 use net for 3 months Tc bye catch you later”

When I read her message I felt so shocked. She didn’t give me a chance to say goodbye to her but then I said to myself ”
She will come back, it just about 3 months I will wait for her and when she will come back I tell her how much I love her”
But that 3 months never finish it converted into years. After three years on 14 Feb I send her last message as in these three years I send more than 100 message to her but she never reply.

I wrote…………………

“Hi angel,
How are you??
I send so many messages & mails to you but you never reply me once. I don’t know what my mistake. I promise you I will not bother you again. It’s my last mail to you. Today I am going to get married I moved towards a new phase of my life but with an empty place in my heart.
That place belongs to you ………..
I never saw you but for me you are the most beautiful girl I have ever known, I want to say so many things to you but I never get that chance but today I want to say “I LOVE YOU” & I ALWAYS DO

Your Facebook friend.

I got married to a nice girl, she was very kind after marriage we went for our honeymoon .
After one month when I joined my office again and checking my mail I saw her mail. She mailed me at the same day 14 Feb I was not able to believe she reply me after 3 years but when I read the subject I felt puzzled in a subject she wrote “My last wish”. When I read her mail I got to know one of the biggest things which change my life forever

In her mail…..
Hi dear,
I am feeling really very happy after knowing that you are getting married today. All my good wishes to both of you.
May God bless you & your would be wife.
I knew this very well that you love me but I don’t want to hurt you that’s why I silently apart from you & your life. You think I am a selfish person. Yes I am because I don’t want to hurt a person whom I love the most .
When you read this mail at that time I am seeing you from heaven.
I am suffering from blood cancer and counting my last breath before leaving this world I want to tell you that you are my first love & my last wish is to see you happy, for this I am giving you my smile, spread this smile everywhere when you do this you find your love in each & everyone who smile with you.

LOVE YOU
Your angel

That was the last day I cried since then I always keep her smile with me & make others happy. I made a charitable cancer hospital, living a happy life and spread her smile everywhere just to fulfill my love’s last wish.

Today is the b’day of my angel (my 7 year old daughter) I give her her name as once she said she had a dimpling smile and my daughter also has the same( I hope so).This is the story of my first love.

Love has that ability to change any ones forever
As someone said “Everyone should fall in love once in life because love makes you a very beautiful human from inside”
Just like that boy.

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متنی که نصفش دروغــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــه متنفرم

 

اگه يكي رو ديدي كه وقتي داري رد ميشي بر ميگرده نگات ميكنه، بدون براش مهمي

اگه يكي رو ديدي كه وقتي داري مي افتي برميگرده با عجله مياد به سمتت، بدون براش عزيزي

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اگه يكي رو ديدي كه وقتي داري مي خندي برميگرده نگات ميكنه، بدون براش قشنگي

اگه يكي رو ديدي كه وقتي داري گريه ميكني باهات اشك ميريزه، بدون دوستت داره


اگه يكي رو ديدي كه وقتي داري با يكي ديگه حرف ميزني تركت ميكنه، بدون عاشقته


شايد يه كسي شب ها براي اينكه خواب تورو ببينه به خدا التماس مي كنه ،


شايد يه كسي به محض ديدن تو دستش يخ ميزنه و تپش قلبش مرتب بيشتر ميشه ،


مطمئن باش يه كسي شب ها به خاطر تو توي درياي اشك مي خوابه ،


ولي تو اون رو نمي بيني!....

دلتـــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــنگم

 

 

 

فصل پاییزی چشمام،با نگات بهاري ميشه

اين كوير خشك ذهنم،سبز سبز،پر از عاشقانه ميشه

اولين سلامت اي گل،ميشه آغاز يه احساس

اين حس جديد،خاطره انگيزترين حادثه ميشه

با لمس حضورت ميگذرم از مرز سياهي،ميرسم به اوج رويا

با تو جاي نقطه چين خط هر كتابي،يه ترانه كاشته ميشه

با تو خوبم،نيست با تو هيچ درد و ملالي

با تو اين ذهن عقيمم،پر از نطفه ي عاشقانه ميشه

افسوس صد افسوس رسيديم به وداع،به سر واژه ي بدرود

با حضور واژه هاي اين چنيني،عاشقانه هامون،جملگي غم نامه ميشه

 

 

 

 

 

در کنار پرچین بی قراری، قصهء پر غصهء دلتنگی مرور می کنم...

هستم؛ اما نمی دانم این بودنم زندگی ست یا مرور الفبای مردگی ست؟!!

چندین قرن است که از کنار خود گذشته ام ؛ نمی دانم من جور تن می کشم یا تن جور من؟!!

سبک شده ام؛ اما نه از غم، از من... 

در جنگل انسان ها گم شده ام...

نمی دانم باورهایم ادعا شده اند یا ادعاهایم باور...

فقط می گردم... تمام خود را مرور می کنم؛ نشانی از من نیست...

رها شده ام، نه که آزاد، رها...

لمس می کنم، اضطراب هولناک ثانیه ها را...

نقطه می گذارم تا به اول خط برسم، اما هنوز شروع نشده به انتها می رسم؛ گویی تمام خط های زندگیم به انتها رسیده در طلب نقطه پایان می سوزد...

روزگارم حجم خالی نمکدانی شده که لحظه لحظه، مشت مشت نمک بر زخم، دلتنگی را با دلشوره می آمیزد...

دیر زمانیست نبودن، بودن را یدک می کشد...

دیر زمانیست من و تنهایی و غربت هم اتاقی شده ایم ...

دیر زمانیست در تقلای هم آغوشی با مرگ، هرشب مستانه سماع می کنیم... . 

سری در گریبان...

دستی پنهان...

دلی غمگین...

نگاهی خسته...

چشمی پر اشک...

صدایی لرزان...

نفسی دلتنگ...

انتظاری منتظر...

شعری نیمه کاره...

یادی تا همیشه...

پنجره ای بسته...

هوایی دلگیر...

شبی اندوه بار...

خوابی تا رویا...

ستاره ای سوخته...

وداعی با تو...

منی بی من...

تمام درد من از این غم است بانو جان

که هرچه ازتو بگویم کم است بانو جان

چــه دور مـانده ام از آفتاب چشمانت

بگیـر دست مـرا سـردم است، بانو جان

 

"این شعر نیست این خود منم"

بغض غریبی در میان بیت‌ها جاری است، می‌فهمی؟

وقتی اسیر غصه ای، لبخند اجباری است، می‌فهمی؟

 

آبی‌ترین بودم میان وسعت چشمت، ولی حالا

پرپر زدن در این قفس از روی ناچاری است می‌فهمی؟

 

وقتی که در رویای من قاب تو خالی شد ندانستم

تصویرهای زندگی، کابوس بیداری است! می‌فهمی؟

 

من با تو هستم تا همیشه، تو بدون من... نه ممکن نیست

این عشق بی فرجام هم نوعی ‌خودآزاری است، می‌فهمی؟

 

تا سد شدی، بر اشتیاق روزهای رفته از دستم

دریای پشت پلک‌ها، دیوان اشعاری است، می‌فهمی؟

 

شوری به پا کن در میان دفترم موجی خروشان باش

وقتی نباشی هر غزل هر واژه تکراری است،‌ می‌فهمی؟

 

من روزه‌ی دلتنگی ام را با تبسم‌های تو وا می‌کنم

پس " رَبَنّایَت " را بخوان، هنگام افطاری است، می‌فهمی؟